"For to be free is not merely to cast off one's chains, but to live in a way that respects and enhances the freedom of others." -Nelson Mandela
When I was eighteen years old I got into a plane and flew across the world to South Africa. Before I got there I had a "briefing" about some of the country's history. I was given an overview of Apartheid and the effects that racism had on the country. Like the other members of my team I was horrified by the facts and stories we heard in that briefing and I just kept thinking to myself, "Thank God that's over." My white, middle-class, feminine self believed with her whole heart that because the law had changed, the country had changed- and then the plane landed.
What I found when I waded into African soil was that the effects of hatred are far-reaching. As I listened to stories and walked through townships I realized that the work was just beginning. I saw pain and poverty like I had never seen before. But what struck me the most was the distance in the conversations the country was having. There were some who would say, "South Africa has seen a dark time, but we've pulled ourselves up by our bootstraps and things are better now. We're working together and we've silenced the voice of hatred." The mouths that spoke those words were using white and well fed. The other story I would hear came from the black body, it was a body that was tired- tired of the fight, tired of the pain, tired of the humiliation. That body usually said something like, "We've come a long way. We've battled a long time and there is still much to do. Perhaps the voice of hatred isn't shouting anymore, but it's whispers are just as deadly."
I've spent this week thinking a lot about my time in Africa. The stories coming out of Ferguson remind me of the nights when I slept under African stars. And once again I see two very different stories being presented.
On the one hand there's a narrative that a black "man" robbed a store, assaulted a police officer, and was unfortunately shot in the course of trying to maintain peace and order. As a result of that event people have flocked to the streets and used violence and anger against a city and government that is simply trying to do their job.
The other story says that an African-American BOY was murdered, left bleeding on the street for hours, and dismissed. This atrocity devastated a community that had had enough and they raised their voices and at times their hands and demanded that something change.
Once again the conversations are far apart.
I don't know what happened in the last moments of Michael Brown's life. But I do know this. I know without any doubt that racism still exists in our world and it still exists in our communities. I know that when people are held down long enough, eventually they reach a breaking point and I believe the community of Ferguson (and perhaps the world that is watching) has reached that point. I know that when we look at our neighbor and see skin color or political ties instead of fellow people we are headed for an explosion. I know that my country is filled with people who look differently than I do and believe differently than I do, but those people were also knit together by the Lord Almighty. They are held together with the same muscles, blood, and nerves that I am. I know that we need to stop yelling our stories at each other, take a seat, and listen.
Our conversation is too far apart.
My whole self aches as I watch and read the news coming out of Ferguson. I ache for Michael's mother, who lost a son and in turn lost a piece of herself. I ache for our country- so busy with winning an argument that we've forgotten compassion and grace. But mostly I ache because we have stopped seeing each other. We have stopped seeing each other. We have stopped seeing each other.
That is why we must talk about this and not just with the people who look like us and think like us. It is time to listen- listen to the hurting as they cry. Listen to the angry as they shout. Listen to the whispers and the warnings and the stories. Listen when it costs us something. Ferguson is not just a town in some part of the country that doesn't have anything to do with us. Ferguson is our town and our people and they are crying out. Will we hear them? Will we risk what is comfortable and listen to them? Will we attempt to hear the story that doesn't read like the one we've lived out and learn what is written on their pages? I hope so.
Perhaps in those moments our conversations will run together, bleeding both black and white.
