world AIDS day

giving it back on thanksgiving...

this year for thanksgiving i was in houston, texas. the "california nazarians" were visiting the "texas nazarians". it was big and loud and wonderful. there was so much to be thankful for: jared's new wife sarah, who is quickly becomming my favorite cousin. the food and family we had. the warm and wonderful house we stayed in. lisa's newly purchased home. and although i found myself full of joy there was still a small twinge of sorrow.

as much as i love the holiday season, there is this small part of me that wishes i could hide in bed the night before thanksgiving and stay there till after new years. there is this ache in my heart. the ache has two parts (i bet you didn't know it was possible for an ache to have parts, well it is!). the first is the ache i have for the poverty around the world. i think about the time i spend buying presents and making cookies and i wish i could fill it more usefully. i wish i could gather each lost and lonely child in my arms and tell them it will all be alright. the second ache is much less noble. the second ache is for that person, that man that will gather me in his arms and whisper that it all will be alright. i wish i had someone to kiss under the mistletoe. no scratch that- mistletoe smells and i would never put it up in my home. but you get the idea. so readers, i anxiously await the beginning of the holiday season, and i also anxiously await the end.